Inside the mind, An inferno.
Fire and heat burning always.
as the waves of loss rush in and out.
Is that all you have given me?
To remember and cherish?
fear and anger and hatred
despising you through and through
and yet ..
ravaging times does not stop your cruel memories from
scratching my surface
peeling my layers off,
stripping the bark off,
exposing the naked self,
Leaving me floundering and asking
Why did you burn me so when i never wanted it?
Your sadistic delight in torture
is the best and worst of you.
Your cruelty is my secret pleasure
My slavishness is your delight.
Chains of torture.
rhythms of sacrifice and pillage
We hate as we love
two faces of the same
two hearts and one soul
entwined in bitterness
rage, and despair
and yet love as love never was
nor will be..
Alone in despondency and bitterness
nurturing my hate as my love